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As Many Nows as I Can Get

As Many Nows as I Can Get

by Shana Youngdahl

For fans of All the Bright Places and I'll Give You the Sun, this is the acclaimed story of two teens who've known each other all their lives, only to truly find each other just in time to change the course of their futures forever.

For Scarlett, David is another mountain in the background of her small Colorado town, until one day, he's suddenly so much more than just part of the scenery. Magnetic, spontaneous, David is a gravitational force. And Scarlett, pragmatic, wry, eye on the future, welcomes the pull he has on her. Bantering, bridge-diving, night-swimming, road-tripping--this is how the two fall recklessly together that last month of summer, before ambition and expectation whisk them off to separate colleges, before their entwined lives unravel. Sometimes, it's easy to see only the parts of people you want to see. Sometimes, it's easy to see only those parts of yourself. But as Scarlett looks deeper, as she's forced to widen her world and weave it back together, David's comes further undone.

Moving between the past and the present, this is the story of a seemingly grounded girl who's pulled into a lightning-strike romance with an electric-charged boy, and the enormity of the aftermath. Smart, bold, and emotionally rich, Shana Youngdahl's debut explores grief, guilt, and reconciling who you think you need to be with the person you've been all along.

“A daring, inventive story about love and loss and longing, reminding us that every choice can be a new chance. A dazzling, not-to-be-missed debut." —Kathleen Glasgow, author of Girl in Pieces

"You'll speed read through [it]." —PopSugar

“Plot twists and surprising emotional connections . . . John Green–like, intelligent and peppered with witty repartee. Recommended.” —Booklist

“Real relationships, timeless loss, and a story you won’t forget.” —Huntley Fitzpatrick, author of My Life Next Door

"Vivid." —

★ "Grief, addiction, first loves, and traveling an unplanned road are among the many themes explored in this debut novel. . . . Heartfelt yet often sardonic . . . deeply authentic [and] marvelously complex. [A] smart, poignant story [that] readers shouldn't miss." Kirkus (starred review)

"Mystery . . . Heartbreak . . . Hope . . . Readers will not be able to put this one down." SLJ

“A complex, compassionately written love story.” —Publishers Weekly

“Time is relative in this unique blend of romance and drama. . . . A definite purchase and must read.” —VOYA

“This heartbreaking, exquisitely crafted story captures the moments of intersection between choice and regret, the circular nature of grief, and everything that is nuanced about being a person.” —Estelle Laure, author of This Raging Light

"YA literature, some say, is about the moments when one state of being changes to another. In its structure and its story, As Many Nows as I Can Get is a perfect example of this sometimes bumpy, sometimes poignant transition." —BookPage

  • Pages: 432 Pages
  • Publisher: Penguin Young Readers Group
  • Imprint: Dial Books
  • ISBN: 9780525553861
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